All About Me

Dong… Dong… Chiang…

Happy happy "piggy" year…

"Piggy, piggy" come… "Doggie, Doggie" go…

Wish every one of us will be as happy, prosperous and enjoy as "Piggy"… Ha Ha Ha…

Also wish everyone get big big "ang pau"…

Yep yep… this is my last year to get "ang pau" loh… Next CNY will have to give "ang pau" already… Why? Ha… Me getting married this year… that’s why… Actually never thought of will get married so soon… But anyway… I am happy…

Last but not least… HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR… May all your sweet sweet dreams will come true this year…

Have all the "wealth" and "health" flow to us…

Yep.. Yep… Back home at last for CNY… Feeling is a bit messy… Coz my work is still bugging me… And I guess it will go on and on and on for the rest of this CNY… Really wanna leave my work behind but couldn’t…

Really sad and felt disappointed with myself… Never feel so useless in my life… never until now… No matter how hard I try… Still I have this feeling that I am not good enough and bring lots of problems to my colleagues… Guess I am just not being at the right place… doing the right work… at the right time…

Sometimes I feel that I am getting more and more depressed and feel like taking my life away… But hey don’t worry… I might say I wanna kill myself… But I am still conscious and aware of what I am doing… Will not really commit suicide… Ha ha… See… I think I really have two or more me inside me… sort of like an angel and a devil inside me…

Wait a minute… CNY is just less than 24 hours away… what I am saying here… hmm… I should be happy and enjoy myself… right… right…

OK… Really hope to see my old friends… Yep.. going to call u all later…

Gong Xi Fa Cai…. Let all of us can leave all those unlucky, unhappy memories and experiences… and welcome every good things flow into our life… Yep Yep Yep…

Oh… I m so happy that after reading my last post one of you call me and another drop me a message to ask how am I doing… I am so touched by you two… Yep Don’t worry… I will be fine… Just write all my anger… frustration… stress… everything out here… ha… never really expect ppl to read and feedback to me… but still this encourage to write more… oh… Yep… yep… I would also love to read your blog… Please do write something sometime… so I know how are you…

Ha ha… Yep,… Am still in office now… OT again… hahahaha… see something wrong again with me… But don’t worry… it’s just me releasing my stress… I might say or act strangely but I am ok… No problem…

Gambatte ne!!!!!!!

There are just 2 ppl in this world that I really really wanna curse today… Just really hope that they would just disappear from my surrounding… and don’t ever let me hear from them anymore… I just can’t stand their phone calls anymore…

Yah right everything is my fault… huh..!&%$#… When I did something to help them… no… it’s my job… if I don’t help… No… you can’t … Find a way to get things going… Like I have control to everything…. hey..!!!! I also being employed by this company… Not like I own it… If I own it… I wouldn’t be here so pathetic…

You all just don’t seem to being stand in our position and use your pathetic brain to think… We are not god… If we can’t make it… we can’t…. No big deal… Don’t blame eveything to us….

I wanna leave here and don’t wanna come back here anymore… no good pay… tonnes of unfinished sh*t… just get someone else to finish this pile of sh*t…….

I wanna have my life back…………………………………!!!!!!!!!

No matter what we happy or sad, satisfied or disappointed, life still goes on… Therefore it’s up to us to choose whether we wanna live happily or not… Yah right, saying this is super easy… like what I am going through now… In fact right now, at this very moment, I feel extremely down, sad and upset… yah every words that can describe sad is what I feel now… But what can I do… life still goes on… still have tonnes of work waiting for me to do… that’s what I hate most… no satisfaction in my work… all I felt is burden… stress… I even felt humiliated, useless…

This is not right…!!! Not right at all… Now what’s wrong with me??? Is it my problem or what??? I wanna get things done… I wanna get things done correctly… But everythings just seems not right?..!?… I felt like I am not doing anything that’s useful… I felt like I am not doing things right??? But is it real or it’s just my feelings?

Is this job worth me staying any longer??? It’s affecting my life… yes my personal life… If I still have one…. I had nightmares yah and it’s about my job… Can’t have good night sleep… Even weekends receive calls from office… if I don’t go OT…

This SUCKS…..!!$^&()&%><?!#$^&